Why am I always burdened with measuring my value by how much I accomplish? How much is enough? How much do I have to accomplish before I am satisfied that I have value?
Is everyone like this?
I feel like God has been trying to teach me to stop doing this. To stop measuring all together. And, especially to stop measuring based on works. His love for me is immeasurable! And, my goal should be to rest in that love and security and to be led by him in all that I do, say and even think!
I know that. And, it is a fairly simple concept. Just not an easy one.
So, I continue to feel good about myself when I have had a day filled with the completion of tangible tasks. The more things that were scratched off my to-do list, the better I feel.
God wants me to get rid of that mindset. I know he does. And he is stretching me in order to teach me to do it.
If I'm honest, it has been a pruning process he started in me about 13 years ago! It has been a long, slow road to where I am now. Many of the things that I have always depended on the fill me up and make me feel whole and valuable, he has led me to let go off. He wants me to get that from HIM.
And, if I really think I can measure my value based on how much I do, or how good I am, then how much is enough? It would never be enough! I will never DO enough to impress God with my works. And I will never be GOOD enough to impress him either. He loves me unconditionally. He wants my surrender, not just my effort.
So, how much is enough?
Complete and total surrender of my self.
3 comments:
It's enough for you to be 'in Christ', you don't need a list or a full day to be in Him. Love you.
For everything there is a season. In this time you are where HE has you to be. And learning to BE is not as easy as those two little letters seem to work out. I know you are walking the path of faith and you will be lead by His Spirit. Keep looking up and don't worry about focusing in too much. As He guides you will BE all you need to be.
Love you much tmp
(oh by the way you gotta know I too struggle with the "I can to it all; when is it enough")
I am reading a book "A Mothers Time", by Elise Arndt. Some of what I read this morning I wanted to share.
Don't allow list making to steal your joy or spontaneity. The whole point of managing your time is to remove the pain so you can get on with living, noy to propel you into compulsive, nonstop activity. Keep in mind that your schedule is your slave. Don't allow your list to control you. When you become a slave to your schedule, you are missing out on what God desires for your life.
Any how, it is a good book.
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